How does it feel, you ask.
Like my thoughts are ganging up against me,
and all they do is taunt and torment me.
Like there is a chasm in my heart,
and all it does is bleed and drip.
Like my muscles are weakened,
and all I can do is lie in bed,
feeling sorry for myself.
Like I’m alone,
even when I’m surrounded by people.
Like every bite of food is gravel against my tongue,
and I can’t stomach anymore.
It feels like I’m in limbo,
where yesterday was gray,
today is tormenting,
and the future bleak.
It feels like no one understands,
or wants to understand.
” You’re losing weight, are you dieting? Oh, it’s those instagram models. Don’t let their perfect bodies get into your head “
No, I’m not trying to lose weight.
It’s just….
No, you won’t get it.
I let it slide with a plastered smile and a nod,
and let myself weep behind closed doors.
Nobody understands.
What? I’m sorry,
I didn’t catch that.
Yes, I’ve thought of an out.
Gods, I’ve looked at the razor a hundred times,
wanting it against my skin.
I’ve wondered how it would feel to not feel.
If I ended it,
I could be free of the turmoil and pain.
But no.
I can’t summon the energy,
running from my troubles.
Who knows, I could be free of this.
One step at a time, right?
You said that last time.
That’s why I opted for this.
Darkness and light 
One word; fantastic👌
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Julien…. Thank you.
That one word evokes tonnes of feeling in me
❤
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Awesome piece
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Michael
Thank you….
It means a lot
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Why so much raw emotion?
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That’s what I always intend. To have my readers feel it like I do… That’s the way I leave an impact
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I just love the way you bring it out.Bravo🔥
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Thank you so much
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Great work right there… Keep up. 👏
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Thank you so much.
I definitely will, with these positive feedback
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Simply amazing
#lovelove
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Thank you…. That means a lot❤
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Reblogged this on BOLD News Kenya and commented:
If you going through Depression you aught to read this poem By Terry so inspiring…. Nd if you mind about your friends I’d recommend you to forward/share widely it great honor and pleasure to live in a world full of ecstasy
Thank you
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Kai… Asante sana🙏🙏.
For the support, the publicity…. The comment. It melts my heart really.
Thank you so much. ❤❤
May God bless you…
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So interesting and sweet, encouraging nd relieving, I just felt a sigh of relief after reading it… Good work Terry í ½í²í ½í²í ½í² keep pushing hard for success
Japheth k Bor
Via Bold news Kenya
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Aaah, Japhe…..Asante sana. I definitely will keep up writing.
Your reviews keep me going on.
God bless you for taking the time to read
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I love it😍❤😥
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Thank you ❤❤❤
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well sculptured tonnes of emotions full of inbound emotions and numerous sprinkles of perfection… good work girl!!.. this is a must read to the universe…
# kadogo_yournumberonefan
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Kadogo…. Asante sana❤❤❤
Your words are perfection themselves😘😘.
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Great work @Terry, I love your poems because they are so direct 🎯 on point 😊😊😁Talk on real life events… keep writing 💯
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Thank you so much Glenn for taking the time to read and comment.
I will go on writing about those issues❤❤
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fabulous daugh🤗
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Pops…. Thank you ❤
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Thanks pops❤
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Thanks pops ❤
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Raw emotions🙌
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Thank you Cloy❤
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