A Mile in Your Shoes

I’d scrutinize addicts confess their relapses,my face passive while I judged them silently,self-righteously thinking,“Oh! What a great tragedy drugs are! How could they bear the devastation of addiction, the humiliation of relapse,the fall from grace”I would never be like them I was sure. Yesterday I was stuck in bed,stuck in a mental loop of tortureContinue reading “A Mile in Your Shoes”

Rainy veil

When did it start?” The question gently flows out of my mouth, mimicking the rain falling just outside the window behind his back. I watch as it kisses and caresses the window, before slowly being sucked in by the soil. It would be completely silent if not for the staccato laughter of children in theContinue reading “Rainy veil”

Failed

On this path again I tread alone…Familiar dark feelings embrace me,pointing to forgotten corners and alleys.Their eyes I avoid,afraid of what I’ll see there;their love that I ran from,the darkness and ugliness I felt free from. In a life far from this path,I loved.I found someone I’d be good enough for.Other feelings embraced me,brighter andContinue reading “Failed”

Hypnotized

A stubborn lip that wanted to lead,Either released or bitten between teeth.I was hypnotized by all the ways it moved,all the ways it laughed,all the ways it smiled. The first time on my neck,Head lolling,mouth agape,nerves alive.Holding on so it don’t let go. Felt as it rose to mine lipPressing nervously,then again firmly,drawing back slowly,aContinue reading “Hypnotized”

Pain’s Lover

Lay me on the altar by the river,show me the shine of the sun on your blade.Metal looks beautiful in your hand,so hit me where it is most tender,and staple my eyes open through it all. Spread my lips so I don’t hiss,as on your fingers my soul melts.I fancy the mask you lay onContinue reading “Pain’s Lover”

Rain For The Wicked

I don’t ask much of the universeDon’t pour libations,nor face the eastern sun,or the western wind-in salutation . I don’t ask much of the universe,don’t stay a while to listen to the trees sing,or the rain clean.The leaves have turned without me seeing,stomped on caterpillars that hoped to be butterflies. I didn’t ask much fromContinue reading “Rain For The Wicked”

Do you love me now

Praised him for his yellow roundness,the way he brightened their universe.A huge spectacle made of his presence,surprising how thin the line between adoration and hate is And sometimes he wished he wouldn’t riseThat he would dwindle and in the darkness-his ashes would be lost in the abyss . Look how the sun,how it dances forContinue reading “Do you love me now”

Solitary

For loneliness was when I stood aside and watched the peace that filled the room.Locked out I resulted to the glass,looking in,Love a fruit I wanted washing down my throat to my cells. Pain a thorn forever on my side;I let it fester,watching the pus and swelling,.Even the flies find a home,and I can’t. IContinue reading “Solitary”

Fragments

I’m sorryI’m sorry that when you stare at these broken pieces…all you will see is nothingness,incomplete puzzles that don’t make sense,incomplete puzzles that you can never figure out. I’m sorry that in my joy is –a practised laugh,a rehearsed pause.In my silence are words stifled by fear,yet I have no cause to be afraid. I’mContinue reading “Fragments”