Pure

It’s a fine line between death and life,in those threads of time when I’m under you,I feel death.I die every time your hand strums my skin,every time my breath stops and I drift on a web of hypnotised ecstasy. It’s a fine line between death and life,and I wish for death when you touch me.DeathContinue reading “Pure”

The Sound Of War

How do you know it’s war?Is it the piercing silence just before?Or the quiet blow of wind as it runs to the west.The sky remains blue,the gods unseeing.Just mere mortals’ squabbles, right? There is a split second when time slows,piercing silence becoming deafeningWhen hearts still and the ground shakes,graves in the making.Hooves split the silence,ClosedContinue reading “The Sound Of War”

Devil’s spawn

You are who the devil sent to tame meLoved the leashes and cuffs,But not for your purposes.I am sorry the cage was too small for me,and everyday a revelation of how farther I move from your vision of me is shown.I cry for me too,but not for why you cry for me.You are who theContinue reading “Devil’s spawn”

Pain’s lover

My bones are lead,a fresh sacrifice on pain’s altarTime is a punisher,laughing at me with its hourly seconds…Hot then frigid,when the door opens and darkness swoops in.Only I feel his breath on my cheek,Like river water caressed by papyrus;Caressing me so,”do you love me so?”My hands are lead,housing fragile skin that breaks at the glazeContinue reading “Pain’s lover”

Mirror

HeyWhy do you have wrinkles?They stretch down,fold your smile…close your eyes…when you smileCan’t look up without that fold between your eyes.You don’t want it anymore?You don’t feel sensual and sexualWhat if like him they go from obsession to indifference?You were pretty once. Now… when you look in the mirror,your face stretches downWhen you look inContinue reading “Mirror”

Felicity

Maybe I will want to replay memories with you,amidst the static and the echoing distanceJust so I can trace myself back to those memories.Will you be okay?Will I be okay? Can I lie on your chest,Pretend I can hear your heart beat and close my eyes?Hold you tight and smell your skinLegs tangled with yours,HeadContinue reading “Felicity”

Rainy Thoughts

Almost like I stopped trying when you stepped,became unfeeling because feeling left me hangingNow I sometimes go to your IG…sometimes your tiktok finds its way to me,and I look at your smile,and how you’ve changed your style…And I look at where you are,How expensively they treat you,How hard you smile,how beautiful makeup looks on you.FridayContinue reading “Rainy Thoughts”

A Mile in Your Shoes

I’d scrutinize addicts confess their relapses,my face passive while I judged them silently,self-righteously thinking,“Oh! What a great tragedy drugs are! How could they bear the devastation of addiction, the humiliation of relapse,the fall from grace”I would never be like them I was sure. Yesterday I was stuck in bed,stuck in a mental loop of tortureContinue reading “A Mile in Your Shoes”

Failed

On this path again I tread alone…Familiar dark feelings embrace me,pointing to forgotten corners and alleys.Their eyes I avoid,afraid of what I’ll see there;their love that I ran from,the darkness and ugliness I felt free from. In a life far from this path,I loved.I found someone I’d be good enough for.Other feelings embraced me,brighter andContinue reading “Failed”

Hypnotized

A stubborn lip that wanted to lead,Either released or bitten between teeth.I was hypnotized by all the ways it moved,all the ways it laughed,all the ways it smiled. The first time on my neck,Head lolling,mouth agape,nerves alive.Holding on so it don’t let go. Felt as it rose to mine lipPressing nervously,then again firmly,drawing back slowly,aContinue reading “Hypnotized”